Ramai orang kata kerja jadi sonographer ni senang. Bak kata pakcik la,
"You just sit and move around the probe around that fat belly and nget nget nget...you don't even need to run around and dealing with f*cking crazy yet demanding people". Kan?? Yeah right!! Banyak kau punya senang. Sakit woo tangan nak buat kerja-kerja scan ni. Kau bukan setakat check baby tu hidup ke tidak Leha oi, but the job is to investigate, to diagnose and to make sure whatever I've seen on that black and white screen is well interpreted on the report to make the doctor or specialist understand what they are dealing with and plan what is the next step.
Sounds easy??
Cuba bayangkan kalau yang datang tu perutnya melimpah ruah with lapan lapis lemak tepu ditambah dengan bau-bauan kari semerbak bersama-sama anak-anak pinak yang bising nak mampus dok melompat dalam bilik kau (dengan lagu tema
'sepuluh budak hitam main lompat-lompat'), pastu boleh komplen kenapa dia tak nampak baby dia on the screen. Bley?? Tak ke laju je mulut kau nak jawab,
"BECAUSE YOU'RE FAT!!!". Off course la aku tak boleh jawab selancang itu. Nak mampus? Instead of saying that, I have to twist the truth by making a white lie contohnya,
"Well, that is because of your bowel gas. Sometimes it made the image a little bit blurry, but don't worry I still can see your baby and everything looks perfectly fine at the moment". Pastu, bila nak explain result and discuss next step for the pregnancy, you have to keep on repeating the same words over and over again sebab dia tak faham. English dia extravaganza sangat jadi dia hanya faham beberapa kerat je dari apa yang kau cakap. Tak ke kau sakit hati?? Kita suruh buat ABC, dia pergi buat XYZ. Pastu orang blame kau sebab salah bagi arahan, padahal mangkuk tingkat tu yang tak faham sepatah haram!! Dah la tak faham, tak nak tanya, pastu buat-buat faham lagi la sakit hati. So, salahkah I meroyan??
Tu belum masuk part nak breaking bad news. Part ni memang aku lemah. Always berbelit-belit explain padahal nak sampaikan satu benda jer iaitu,
"You're baby is dead. I'm sorry". Yang tak dapat terima hakikat tu, terpaksa la kau kena layan jer and suruh diorang bersabar. And sometimes, I thought that I gave them good news, but it was a bad news for the parent. Dalam kes ni, anak kembar la. Most of the parent ni memang suka sangat kalau dapat twin. Siapa ada patient tu, siap peluk aku lagi (husband dia la). Happy sangat katanya and keep on ucap terima kasih kat aku seolah-olah aku yang bagi baby twin tu kat diorang. Ada satu couple Caucasian ni, aku baru jer cakap,
"Congratulation!! You're having TWIN!!". Terus minah tu mencarut macam-macam,
"F*ck!! Oh my f*cking god. Shit!! How this thing happened? F*ck!!". Pastu, partner dia pulak cakap,
"Thanks for giving us the worst heart attack ever!!". Kann?? Salah mak ke uols dapat twin??
Tapi, BF dia cando uols!!
<--- sempat nih!!Paling tak tahan kalau patient late booker. Baby dah masuk 26 minggu pun tak tahu yang empunya diri tu mengandung. For me that is irresponsible. Alasan,
"I didn't feel like pregnant". Bila aku tanya period last bila. Tahu la pulak jawab back 3-4 months ago. Dah tau 3 bulan tak red-cross, tak reti-reti nak check ke?? Pastu, bila aku tanya whether dia rasa breast dia swollen or not. Dia kata swollen and she thought it is because of the cold weather, bley? Yang paling best ni bila aku tanya,
"What made you so sure that you're not pregnant?? Do you take any precaution or contraceptive?". Jawapan TIDAK. Hoh?? Dah tahu pancut dalam without condom or contraceptive, berani ni nak assume that you will not get pregnant.
Lain la macam kisah seorang makcik somali ni. Baru je 6 bulan pasang IUCD (intra-uterine contraception device), tup-tup mengandung 3 bulan. Tak ke haru namanya. Niat hati nak jarakkan kandungan, sekali termengandung kau. Macam mana la si ikan-ikan bilis kecil (sperms la) dapat menempuhi segala pancaroba demi mensenyawakan ovum yang diidam tu kan? So, I assumed that IUCD not functioning properly la kot sebab positionnya dah no longer in-situ. Dah jatuh ke cervix (pangkal rahim) dah ha. Tapi, kalau diikutkan reputasi lelaki-lelaki somali dan afrika ni yang sememangnya terkenal sebagai high sexual drive atau dalam erti kata lain kuat mengongkek partner masing-masing, jangan kata IUCD, dengan rahim-rahim tu pun boleh jatuh!!
*pengsannnn~~Aku rasa orang yang ada tahap kesabaran yang tinggi je la kot boleh buat kerja macam ni, instead of PASSION. Yup,
PASSION and PATIENCE. This 2 things la yang keep me motivated to go on and on and on. And with passion and patience jugak la is the reason I am standing where I am now. And with that 2 thing jugak la, I keep on moving on and bertahan sampai hari ni.
And sometimes, with passion jugak la, kita boleh buat or terbuat benda yang kita tak jangka kita akan buat. Or maybe kita ada plan nak buat tapi belum ada rezeki. So, you stick with your plan and keep on dreaming to fulfill it for year. Berkat kesabaran, akhirnya mimpi jadi kenyataan. And you're no longer living in your dream.
That is what I believe had happened to our Miss Ganu (merangkap ketua muslimat Doha),
Sharifah Lukmarina Hakimah Al-Qatariah yang akhirnya telah sampai hajatnya untuk sambung belajar setelah lama terbang di awan biru, to persuade his dream to become something that he always want to be. Judging from his blog title and dah baca blog dia years ago, tak payah bagitau pun, I dah boleh agak dia nak buat apa. Besides, dia pernah mention it before kat profil blognya. So, I can roughly figured it out. Good for her...eh him and I wish you ALL THE BEST!! Semoga success selalu yer.
By the way Lukman, one of my uni senior yang aku panggil
Abang Acab (or should I say scandal?? LOL matila kena pukul. Ampunnnnnn Shikin!!) adalah pelajar kat situ. Aku rasa tempat yang sama kau nak masuk la sebab tu jer yang aku rasa ada kat KB. Kalau salah harap maap la yer. Kalau jumpa dia kirim salam yer...
*ttbe~~Oklah, last but not least, semoga impian kau tu tercapai la hendaknya. Always believe in yourself and DON'T GIVE UP no matter what happen.
Daaaaaaaa~~